Nessa Barrett released her song “dying on the inside,” along with its accompanying music video, on February 25, 2022. The alt-pop singer-songwriter, who believes in honesty and being honest with her fans, has spoken out about her borderline personality before. disorder, fear and sadness.
And this time, after many fights, she finally spoke about her weight loss and eating disorders in her horrific dance-rock song. The song is about artificial beauty standards that lead many young people to lose weight and develop eating disorders. “I’ve already talked about my borderline personality disorder, anxiety and sadness.” “But the only thing I have trouble talking about is my eating problem,” Barrett said in a statement. She went on to say that she wanted to convey her issues while also writing a song that people could identify with. Even if listeners didn’t have an eating problem, they can connect to it, as they may have suffered from online comparisons.
Nessa Barrett talks about her weight loss and eating disorder
During an interview with Nylon to promote her new song, the singer went into detail about her problem, stating that she had no idea it was a problem. Barrett’s connection with food deteriorated when she compared herself to her high school peers. She wanted to be more like them, so she embarked on an unhealthy weight loss program.
“At first I would have my mom prepare my lunch or say, ‘Hey Mom, I’m going to buy lunch at school’ and then not eat anything.” “Sometimes I would hide my dinner or pretend to eat it in my room before flushing it down the toilet in the bathroom,” the singer said.
The singer would go on Tumblr and look for pro-anorexia stuff, which she had no idea was a problem or unpleasant to watch. She was busy with ‘stick figures’ and losing weight. Unfortunately, her internet celebrity made the situation worse. People started commenting on her appearance, calling her overweight and asking if she was pregnant or had gained weight. Many years later, at age 18, she was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and discovered that eating problems often co-existed with BPD.
Nessa Barrett’s Recovery Journey
The artist saw that eating problems were not covered enough, so she wrote a song about it. It was also her first step toward healing. Each of her writing sessions began with a therapy session. During an interview with Seventeen, she discussed what she had learned from her therapists.
“I’ve been working on this with my therapist, and we’re doing something called fact-checking.” I read a bad comment and my emotional mind will go, ‘Oh my god, this is real.’ But I pause for a moment to ask myself, “Is this really true?” Does someone’s reaction to this affect my self-esteem, self-love or self-confidence? “Is this meant to be my identity from now on, based on one comment?” said the singer.
Of course it wasn’t, so Barrett emphasized that it was all about fact-checking and taking a moment to realize that one statement meant nothing.